Nightmares

I've had that same dream more than once this weekend, and I still can't understand it. However, I honestly think part of it was forgotten, like any other dream, and my paranoid mind filled in the gaps, but here it is:

Our story opens as the three of us are on the beach, the two girls and the boy. We're having so much fun, smiling and playing as if we didn't have a care in the world, because to us, there was nothing to worry about.
The boy gets hungry, and the girls both laugh and agree. They see a little resturant on the left side of the beach, and they decided it would be fun to go check it out. They begin the walk over, and are still smiling and laughing, just like friends should be.
It begins to get cloudy, but the three don't notice. It was a warm, sunny day. It shouldn't be getting cloudy and cold. They're still too layed back to care.
As the three are walking, it begins to look like they aren't even getting any closer to that resturant. Just the oppisite actually, it seems they're getting farther and farther. It's pouring rain, and its starting to get dark. The three can't even see what's in front of them, and they have no idea where they are, or what time it is.
Out of no where, a tornado comes out and scoops up the boy. Out of instinct, the girls run for the boy and try to save him. At that exact moment, a giant wave comes up, and grabs one of the girls. The last girl is so scared. She doesnt know what to do. She doesn't know who she should try and save. Her heart is racing, her mind won't work. The girl realizes the worst thing she can do is nothing, but she doesn't have much time. She can't hurt one by saving the other, so what does she do?
She see's that the girl is moving faster, and farther, and the boy is still close and not moving nearly as fast, so she races for the girl and back to grab the boy. She succeds, but is now being torn apart. Out of the corner of her eye, the girl see's those three boys. The boys she just met from the other side of town. They run over to try and help her. When they get there, its too late. The girl's body wouldn't let her hang on to the two, so she is forced to let go, and she tumbles to the ground. The three boys run over to her, and try to comfort her, but the girl is in shock by what she has just done, and she crys. The boys are now disapearing, and they become totally invisable, gone.
The girl is lost, and now she has no one. She doesn't know what to do. And then she seems him. One of her closest friends, and he's yelling her name, running torwards her. Finally, the girl has just a little bit of hope left. Then she realizes that the boy is putting all his strength into running torwards her, but he isn't getting anywhere. The wind is pushing him away. She just can't bear to think that he might leave her too. She runs torwards him, and as the two are within reaching distance, they are thrown back, and on to the ground. The girl races up and runs over to the boy, but he's dead.
The girl puts her head into her knee's and crys. She's entirely alone, and the world turns black.

And then Sophia jumps awake to the sound of crashing and yelling.

Music Helps

and it helps a hell of alot more than i realized. Heres some of the lyrics I found:

"...because you never let them see you sweat
don't want them to think the pain runs deep.
Lord knows it's killing me.

So i put on my makeup,
Put a smile on my face.
And if anyone asks me,
everything is okay.
I'm laughing coz no one,
knows the joke is on me.
Coz im dying inside,
with my pride
and a smile on my face,
on my face.
Singing lalalala. lala. lala. lalalalalala."
-From 'Smile' by Tamia

"You would not believe your eyes,
If ten million fireflies,
Lit up the world as I fell asleep.
'Cause they fill the open air,
And leave teardrops everywhere,
You think me rude,But I would just stand and
stare.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns
slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems...

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs,
From ten thousand lightning bugs,
As they tried to teach me
How to dance.
A foxtrot above my head,
A sockhop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems...

Leave my door open just a crack.
Please take me away from here
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac.
Please take me away from here
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
Please take me away from here
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep.
Please take me away from here

To ten million fireflies,
I'm weird 'cause I hate good-byes,
I got misty eyes when they said "Farewell",
But I'll know where several are,
If my dreams get real bizarre,
Cuz I saved a few and I keep them in a jar.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns
slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake
when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems..."
-From 'Fireflies' by Owl City

"Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out..."
-From 'Halo' by Beyonce.

"When you're feeling sad and blue,
don't you know that I will always,
Be here for you.
When everything just makes us go out of our minds,
just know that I will always,
Have the time for you.
You say that I am your influence.
You should know that you inspire me.
Now until the end.
I'll help you get through the thick and thin
and I know you'll remember when
I say,

You are strong, strong as a soldier.
Even when winds are tough
you'll always keep it together.
You are
strong, strong as a soldier.
I know you'll get through anything, 'Cause you're strong, strong, strong as a soldier.

When the waves are crashing down,
Can't get up. Just know I'll,
Pick you up from the ground.
When it feels like everything goes wrong,
just remember to listen to this song..."
-From 'My Soldier' by AJ Rafael

Theres more too, but this is all i have time for.

It hurts

You don't realize it do you?

How you worded it, or what you said ?

He was right,

It's a sugar-coated "I love her, not you. Leave me alone"

It hurts how nothing can ever be the same.

It hurts how you don't seem to care.

Nothing you could ever say could numb the pain.

And I have to hold it in,

because you don't want to talk in private anymore.

It hurts so much more than you could ever know.

I told you, I understand.

Now leave me alone.

I don't want to see you on monday.

I can't.

But I can't avoid you either.

I wish we didn't have the same friends.

I want to go see them,

and I can't avoid you in the process.
I'm talking to them right now.
Trying to find ways to see them without seeing you.

I can't bear to face you.

I just can't.

It hurts too much.

What am I going to do?

You're so blind,

You don't realize anything you've done.

It hurts.

Please, at least try to realize that.

I can't even tell you how much I don't want to see you.

I'm scared.

I'm not going to hug you.

I'm not going to say hi.

I'm not going to text you.

I'm not going to call you.

I'm not even going to say bye to you.

If you want to, then fine.

I'm not going to do anything first.

I don't even know if I would do any of it back.

It hurts that I have to think like this,

but i have to.

It's going to be uncomfortable talking to anymore,

and that hurts.

Don't text me anymore.

I'm not reading them.

I'm deleting them all.

You're wasting your texts.

Please, just leave me alone.

It hurts too much.

I'm so sorry.

So, what do you do when someone "in short" tells you to stop caring about them?

Yeah, I cry.

Who wouldn't?

I'm so sorry I hurt you.

I'm sorry I let it go this far.

But I can't say I'm sorry I care about you.

You'll always have a special place in my heart.

I'm sorry I kept reminding you.

Sometimes I wish I had never met you.

It would make things so much easier.

I can't tell you how sorry I am.

I treat you like I treat most of my guy friends.

I'm sorry you don't want that anymore.

Of course it hurts.

I could never lie to you and say it doesn't.

Of course I'm crying.

If you ask, I can't lie to you, but I pray you don't.

You said you didn't want me to cry.

I'm sorry.

I let you down again.

You said it shouldn't change anything.

But it changes everything.

I'm so sorry.

Of course I didn't like you.
Of course I'm not in love with you.

The fact that you kept repeating everything I had done wrong,

just made me cry even more.

I'm so sorry.

I did look at it from your point of view.

I guess I can understand where you're comming from.

I have to understand.

Maybe I'm just different. Maybe it's because I have more close guy friends.

I don't even know if you have as many close girl friends.

I really wish this didn't hurt me so much.

I'll still always care about you.

I just can't show it anymore.

Like I said, you'll always have that special place in my heart.

I just cant show it.

Please, never forget the bond we used to have.

I know you didn't want it to change.

But it changed everything.

I'm so sorry.