Heck, its christmas(:

It's christmas, and for the first time in a really long time, I'm happy. I finally feel some sort of peace. I don't know how it happened, but I knew it would.

Christmas presents! yaay! I got: Cooking Mama for DS, Brain Age 2 for DS, laptop desk, complete with a desk light, a compartment for pens/pencils/paper, and a mouse pad, i got black american eagle boots, wii sports resort, Up on blu ray, Apples to Apples, a Sketch Pad, $50, $25 to Kohls, $25 to Forever 21, chineese checkers, burts bee's lotion, a jacket, and another wii remote.

Now, that is your cue to come play with me and keep me from being lonely. :D

OH don't mind this next part
Notea to selfs:
Don't take the road to the left. Unless He tells you to. Maybe it's supposed to be that one, even though it's the hardest

The girl is asian, possibly wearing all white

College, when you're 19, almost 20.

Never, ever, doubt you're feelings.

If the asian girl uses her common sence, you won't have to go through all the pain.

It was christmas time.

Maybe, you're SUPPOSED to help her. Maybe she's SUPPOSED to forget for a while. Maybe it's supposed to make you stronger in the end. It might be His plan for you.

The area is still covered with a light fog. This could go either way, do not ever forget.

Its funny what a bible verse can do.

"Our struggle isn't against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, authorities, and the powers of this dark world" Ephesians 6:12

Just Another Stupid Child

I suppose this is just gonna be a little rant for a while.

The only times I ever have anything to write about, is when something bad/upsetting/sad happens. It almost bugs me. But them again, those rare times something good/cherishable/happy happens, I try too hard to live in the moment, but those moments are slowly forgotten. Because those happy times are so rare, it feels like those horrible moments brainwash me in to forgetting I was ever happy. I feel so stupid for saying things like "I hate my life" or "My life sucks" because I know I need to be greatful for everything God has given me and for everything he has blessed me with. Honestly, I think it's God testing how we'll react when the people around us try to push us to be suicidal. I think he makes us live with it for so long, because it's a test. He wants to see if we were strong enough to make it out. He wants to see if we were strong enough to keep our faith in Him.

Maybe I'm over-anylyzing. I hate it that I do that.

I hate how when I'm having a bad day, that seems to be the day that everyone wants something. For example: Today, I was scared awake by my little brother wanting to play. I was so tired. I tried to go back to sleep, but I couldn't. About half an hour later, my mom calls me over and says I need to get ready. We aren't freaking doing anything today. I want to sleep. I'm cranky now. Why do I have to get ready, if I'm just gonna sit around untill she thinks I'll be useful? Then my sister comes in, trying to say goodmorning, but ends up PURPOSLY banging my head into the wall. UGH. I have a headache.

Another think that happened today: My mom decides she wants to "have a nice family dinner at least once this week, because if we don't do it tomorow, we won't for the rest of the week." Um excuse me? CHRISTMAS IS THIS WEEK. Are you telling me your gonna leave your children alone go get drunk on CHRISTMAS?
Anyways, the reason she said that is because after i already told people I could go to their parties, my mom decided she wants me home, but she needs an excuse. Then I got a lecture on why my friends shouldn't be important to me and how "my family will always be there for me." Excuse me, YOU'VE NEVER BEEN THERE FOR ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. Why do you think I hate living here? Why do you think I'm always in a bad mood at home? Why do you think I try to spend so much time away from you? UGH I'm crying again, and I can't see the screen. Thank goodness I know how to touch type.

Yet another thing that happened today: I'm always getting blamed for anything bad that happens in this house. "Sophia, i can't find my keys. What did you do with them?!" "Sophia, you left a knife out on the counter! You could've hurt your siblings!" "SOPHIA! My room is a mess. WHAT DID YOU DO?!" "Sophia, you put the ironing board out wrong. Remember next time..." In case you hadn't noticed, all these things I'm getting blamed for, are the things my mom is doing. UGH.

I really wanna write more, but I'm starting to question this. Do people really actually care about anyone but themselves? Do they really take time out of their day to read a stupid little girl's blog? Does it even matter if someone reads it? UGH i have a headache again. I wish I could go at least ONE DAY without crying.

Impulse

is a really good book. LOL

I have a bad feeling I'm reading these out of order. I am completely done with glass now. I finished crank a long time ago. I think I'm gonna read burned now. I don't know.



"As you go through life you'll see, there is so much that we, don't understand.

And the only thing we know, is things don't always go, the way we plan

But you'll see everyday that we'll never turn away, when it seems all your dreams come undone.

We will stand by your side, filled with hope and filled with pride.

We are more than we are, we are one."

-Simba in Lion King 2 :D First Verse of "We Are One"



I think I'm crazy. I've been typing out lyrics by myself.



So how are you? Oh, thats good. Really? Oh dang, cool. No way. NUH UH ! NOOO! OH DANG! Thats so weird. Oh, I see. Ahh yes. GOTTA CATCH EM ALL. POKEMON !



mkay, I think I've talked to myself enough for today. I miss my little english journal. I didn't think it would become such a habit.



I bought light grey eyeliner today! It's so pretty! And I bought these really pretty eyeshadows. So now, I'm good on makeup for the rest of freshman year.



I would like to go to the beach right now. In the cold. Just lie down on the warm sand and wait for the water to carry me away. Far away. Start a new life. Then go to the beach there and just fall asleep like a little homeless person. Hope and pray the police don't find me. But they do: "I'm sorry, sweetie, but we have to take you home now." "I have no home" "Where's your mommy and daddy." "I don't know." "Where do you live?" "Everywhere." "Oh okay, I guess we'll just have to leave you here. Before we go, have a doughnut." "Thanks, Officer." And then the waves will carry me away to somewhere new, and I'll have all sorts of adventures, all around the world. Something new everyday. A new name, everyday. I should write a book about a little girl like that. I bet it would sell. LOL



I really hate random blogs. Don't you?



"It's you and meee. I know it's my destiny! POKEMON! Oooooh you're my best friend, in a world we must defend. POKEMON!"



The end(:



-SophiaFregoso(:

If anyone cares.

I've been watching Aladin, Tarzan, Elf, Polar Express, Spirited Away, and Lion King 2 over the past 2 days I've been sick, and if there is anything I've learned, Lion King 2 has some music that's incredibly empowering. Oh, and I wrote these lyrics out myself, so I apologize if the chanting is not entirely gramatically correct.

Link to the music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=apEuFdzP5ZU&feature=related

He Lives in You
Night, and the spirit of life, calling
Oh, oh, iyo
malema oh, oh, iyo
And the voice, with the fear of a child, answers
Oh, oh, iyo, oh mamena oh oh iyo
Omo switchy vososomo oco yesi yesi oh so so que
Wait! ait, ait, ait...
There's no mountain too great
Hear the words and have faith
Oh, oh, iyo
Have faith.

Hela hey mamela, hela hey mamela
Hela hey mamela, hela hey mamela
He lives in you, he lives in me
Hey hey mamela
He watches over, everything we see
Hey hey mamela
Into the water, into the truth
Hey hey mamela
In your reflection, he lives in you

Ey manyana ay manana baba
Ingonyama, nengenamaba

He lives in you, he lives in me
Hela, hey mamela
Hela, hey mamela
He watches over, everything we see.
Into the water, into the truth
In your reflection, he lives in you.
He lives in you.
Oh, mamela
Oh, mamela

So wait, theres no mountain too great.
Hear the words and have faith.
Have faith.
Heaeeaeeay

He lives in you, aaaah
He lives in me,
Hela hey mamela
Hela hey mamela
He watches over, everything we see
Into the wataaahaaaha, into the truth
In your reflection, hela hey mamela
He lives in you.
Yoooououu

He lives in you,
He lives in me,
He watches over, everything we see.
Into the water, into the truth
In your reflexion
He lives in you.
He lives in you.