It hurts

You don't realize it do you?

How you worded it, or what you said ?

He was right,

It's a sugar-coated "I love her, not you. Leave me alone"

It hurts how nothing can ever be the same.

It hurts how you don't seem to care.

Nothing you could ever say could numb the pain.

And I have to hold it in,

because you don't want to talk in private anymore.

It hurts so much more than you could ever know.

I told you, I understand.

Now leave me alone.

I don't want to see you on monday.

I can't.

But I can't avoid you either.

I wish we didn't have the same friends.

I want to go see them,

and I can't avoid you in the process.
I'm talking to them right now.
Trying to find ways to see them without seeing you.

I can't bear to face you.

I just can't.

It hurts too much.

What am I going to do?

You're so blind,

You don't realize anything you've done.

It hurts.

Please, at least try to realize that.

I can't even tell you how much I don't want to see you.

I'm scared.

I'm not going to hug you.

I'm not going to say hi.

I'm not going to text you.

I'm not going to call you.

I'm not even going to say bye to you.

If you want to, then fine.

I'm not going to do anything first.

I don't even know if I would do any of it back.

It hurts that I have to think like this,

but i have to.

It's going to be uncomfortable talking to anymore,

and that hurts.

Don't text me anymore.

I'm not reading them.

I'm deleting them all.

You're wasting your texts.

Please, just leave me alone.

It hurts too much.